Change of Plans
So I am Deciding to make this a Diary account instead of an art account I will post some of m art on here but I need it to be more for writing my repressed feelings. Names have been changed so I won’t (God Forbid) Offend anyone I’m going to start where my Real Diary Starts off: Date: January 13, 2010 Tonight for the First time in ages, I feel like I can Breath fully. Like the guilt...
The person I want to love me doesn’t and the person that loves me, I don’t know if I can love back.
There it is Again....
I tend to hold my feelings up inside me until I’m alone then they burst out and I can’t stop. Well I let them out tonight the little demons locked inside my heart, I let go and I think I might have let my mind go just a little with them. I just keep going around in circles not knowing if I will be pushed, beaten or torn a little more inside. This feeling is burning the living Shit out...
Well don’t mind this shit I’m just gonna whine about being depressed and other shit so yeah. I still just can’t cope with my life right now between my mom bitching at for no apparent reason (possibly PMS on her part) But She doesn’t need to act like she’s three, I mean come on. Besides that I am on the brink of throwing my computer into the pit of hell and holding on...
So I Was going through a tough time the other day, The world sorta caved in and smacked me right in the face. >.> But I think I’m a little better. I am sorry to the people I freaked out the other day about the whole suicide question………. (my bad) But thank you all for your loving comments. ^-^ -Vamps